A Journey to Your Life

One hazy morning , it stuck me like chilly wind in the face,where am i going, which way is this. 
Yes i realized i was in my car driving one foggy morning  and also that i was not a new place, i had zoomed through this patch a hundred times now not thinking about it for a second. But this question was more for me rather than whatever that i was going to do actually that day. 
Felt like a metaphor of my life that very moment , thinking where is this headed to ? This everyday get up - go to work , come back home - sleep routine is all for what ? Where will i reach by running in these circles. I guess better at work , better job , better pay , better places to visit. But actually where is all this headed ? 

Who knows , we all just go thought this experience called life , just to get through?? That wouldn't be right, Its supposed to mean something i believe. That's what i have heard. 
Waiting for that meaning to come.To be frank getting a bit doubtful now , if it really does exist. 

One time , some time back , I did feel like i had met the meaning of my life , to have great friends. 
yes , don't laugh , I have had great friends and I , for once felt , my use , or my point if being in this world is due to a reason that i make good friends and gel with all the people- Mostly ! That's where i felt connected and completely at home.
Felt good to be the agony aunt at times and let me accept am pretty good at it. 

Then it passed like another phase in life. Not that i do not make good friends now , i do , but something is missing and i feel it. 
I don't know how many phases are there to pass for me to finally meet that reason am here. 
They say you do not get a human form that easily ,one should make up for it and be good and what nots. 
I guess you will never know until its passed. Thats the irony i see. 

Lost

For the world I am free

For my thoughts am guarded

Caught in the web of ideas and notions

Struggle to find myself and the mind

Lost in details and in a  bigger picture than i can see

Trying to make sense of this loosing and gaining 
In the deep thoughts and yet nothing on the mind

Instead of living , passing life.

Friends at a distance

People around

Left myself in the whole turnaround

Don’t have anything to say , just listen

Silent with so many noises it doesn't even reach my ears. 

THE POWER OF NO

Sometimes its just needed to be expressed not just for the sake of an expression of choice  but a matter of self discovery , Justice and Confidence. 

But these two letters are just not easy to use sometimes. 

During the day, I sometimes wonder how important are the choices that we make and the dilemma of using the correct and appropriate of these two words is the deciding factor of where you might land later.
Of the thousands of choices we make in life, what you say yes and no to decide your path forward. 
Recall all the decisions you made - All you can think of right now. If given a do over , will they change?